Divine Appointment

*If you are new or haven't kept up with my blog please go back and start with the post titled "Seasons". These posts are better read in order so that you get the full picture.

I have never been one to discount what God can do. I have seen and heard amazing stories (present day) of how God moves and works. And so, He moved one day in my life in a pretty life-changing event. I was at a friend’s house earlier last month having one of my rough days where I didn’t want to be alone. I took the kids over there early in the morning and we were just going to hang out together until Jon got off work. My friend’s house is in the middle of a renovation and a fellow church member was at their house working there. I had never personally met this man but I knew who he was. As he was walking through the house on his way out he noticed me and turned to my friend’s husband and said, “Doesn’t she go to our church? Isn’t she one of the ones who lead worship? She’s lost a lot of weight. Why is she so sad?” He proceeded to ask my friend’s husband if he could share his story with me. So my friend’s husband told his wife and when she told me, I just broke down. I had heard his story before at church. I knew that it was pretty powerful and that God had radically changed him. So I climbed in his truck as well as my friend and he proceeded to share his story. I told him mine and how I was finally at a point where I was seeking medical attention as to why I can’t seem to shake this anxiety and why I can’t eat. He had told me that he got on medication to help him through his rough patch and now God is using him. He told me that he had a word from God and it was to get on the medication. Oddly enough I had told my doctor the day earlier that I would try anything but medication. I was afraid of what it might do to my mind. I began to cry again and said ok. He also told me of how I had ministered to him many times through singing. Now it was his time to speak into my life. So I asked my friend to go with me to pick up my medicine. I was still terrified but I did it because God had told him to tell me to take it. I was only on the medication for 2 days because it had such an adverse reaction to me. I even called my doctor at 2 in the morning to tell him what was going on. He told me to get off the medication and come in on Monday. I went in to find that they didn’t want me on anti-depressants (that was the medication they had put me on) since I was dealing more with anxiety. They also wanted to test my thyroid since for a while now it had been borderline overactive. Apparently, having an overactive thyroid can cause anxiety and weight loss. So, I was put on a new medication for my anxiety that was to be used as needed. Much better! The test results came back for my thyroid saying that it was in hyperactive mode and so off to another doctor. I am now on something for my thyroid in the hopes that this will alleviate everything-medically speaking. I still believe that there is some spiritual warfare. I haven’t been able to get back on stage to sing in over a month. I have allowed satan to take that from me! I hate that!

All that to say that I believe that I had a divine appointment that day at my friend’s house. I believe that man was there the same time that I was there not just to work on my friend’s house but to speak into my life.

It amazes me that when I am feeling at my lowest and feel as though God is just not talking to me that He is. He is using other people at times to speak into my life. Another example is a wife of one of our pastors felt God impress upon her to pray for me. I had told her husband what was going on about a month earlier but he hadn’t shared anything with her. She emailed me to tell me that God had impressed upon her to pray for me and it shook me. The timing was totally of God because that was the time where I felt that everything falling apart. I again cried and emailed her about what was going on. It still amazes me how God uses other people to speak into our lives.

Even though we may feel as though God is not talking to us, He is. It may be hard to hear Him because we are so consumed in our circumstances but He is ALWAYS with us…ALWAYS. Listen to Him. Listen to others who hear from Him. He is all around talking to us. I say this to you but I am really saying this to me. He has told me that He would never leave me nor forsake me. Yes, that is a truth spoken in His word but it is also what He continues to tell me time and time again. I am His child therefore He will never leave me nor forsake me! I am clinging to that promise!