I’m OK

*If you are new or haven’t kept up with my blog please go back and start with the post titled “Seasons”. These posts are better read in order so that you get the full picture.

“Beloved, if He has become God alone to you, you have a powerful story to tell. Start talking.” Beth Moore Breaking Free

It’s amazing to me the amount of friends and family who have contacted me about my blog posts. Some that I haven’t spoken to in years! I am blessed because that means that I get to share what God has brought me through! Yes, it has been a hard past couple of months. At times I have felt like God wasn’t even there although I know He was. He is good…all the time! Can I get an Amen?!?! (I’ve been doing a Beth Moore study recently so if you know her then you know what I am saying! She is all about getting Amens! and shouts from the audience­- it’s interactive!) This post is to let you all know that I am doing fine. I know that my past posts have seemed pretty heavy but I wanted to share what I have been going through. I want to share that I am not superwoman. BUT, I AM OK! I am more than ok-I am broken and made new all at the same time! I am a beautiful, broken mess!

It’s crazy for me to think that Jesus knows what I am going through but He does. Remember the garden? He was alone! Remember the wilderness? He hadn’t eaten for days and was tempted! He experienced that and more for me and you! Because of that I can stand on my own two God-given feet and shout I am OK! He has delivered me from the hands of the enemy to shout it out! To God be the glory!

I am choosing to share with you all that I have gone through. “Gone” being the key word! Yes, I am still “going” through some things but not in the same way. I am choosing to see the Light in all of this. Choosing to listen to God rather than the enemy.

As I have mentioned before I LOVE music and it ministers to me in ways that nothing else can. It is where I feel the presence of my Lord and SAVIOR. There is a song that has always struck a chord with me even though before I hadn’t felt how she (Sara Groves) feels. I wish I knew the story behind this song. I love it. I am sharing it with you to share how I am feeling and how I choose to look at things now.

Here are the words to “Less Like Scars”:

It’s been a hard year/But I’m climbing out of the rubble/These lessons are hard/Healing changes are subtle/But every day it’s//Less like tearing more like building/Less like captive more like willing/Less like breakdown more like surrender/Less like haunting more like remember//And I feel You here/And you’re picking up the pieces/Forever faithful/It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation/But you are able/And in your hands the pain and hurt/Look less like scars and more like character//Less like a prison more like my room/Less like a casket more like a womb/Less like dying more like transcending/Less like fear, less like an ending//And I feel you here/And you’re picking up the pieces/Forever faithful/It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation/But you are able/And in your hands the pain and hurt/Look less like scars and more like character//Just a little while ago/I couldn’t feel the power or the hope/I couldn’t cope, I couldn’t feel a thing/Just a little while back/I was desperate, broken, laid out/Hoping you would come//And I need you/And I want you here/And I feel you/And I know you’re here and you’re picking up the pieces/Forever faithful/It seemed out of my hands, a bad bad situation/But you are able/And in your hands the pain and hurt look less like scars/And in your hands the pain and hurt look less like scars/And more like character

Sara Groves from her album All Right Here